[Day 4] Daniel 1 and 12

Daniel 1 describes how Daniel came into servitude of the king of Babylon at the time, Nebuchadnezzar. He was of Israeli royalty from the tribe of Judah, and apparently good looking and smart:

1.3 Then the king ordered Ashpenaz, chief of his court officials, to bring in some of the Israelites from the royal family and the nobility-
1.4 young men without any physical defect, handsome, showing aptitude for every kind of learning, well informed, quick to understand, and qualified to serve in the king's palace. He was to teach them the language and literature of the Babylonians.

The king also allocates a portion of the food from his own table to Daniel and his 3 buddies, but they refuse to eat it, instead asking for vegetables and water. This freaks the chief official out, because if Daniel and his friends look any less healthier, and the king finds out, he's dead. But Daniel insists that they'll be fine and asks the official to test them out for 10 days on veg and water, and it turns out they appear fairer and fleshier than all the other guys who are still feeding off the king's table.

This is significant, firstly as a sign of independence from the luxuries and produce of this kingdom, choosing instead to live off what is readily available throughout the land. Secondly, as a sign of protest, to say that they are not of this kingdom and are not going to be bound by the rules of that kingdom, despite the fact that they are exiles who have been captured. Daniel shows strength of character and integrity in choosing to remain upright in the face of all this, in resolving not to defile himself with the royal food and wine [1.8].

Scripture goes on to say that Daniel and friends are gifted with incredible knowledge and understanding of literature and scholarly things by God, and Daniel can understand dreams and visions [1.17]. I reckon that's pretty useful. This pretty much reflects what Solomon writes in Proverbs 2.7;

.7 He stores up sound wisdom for the upright and is a shield to those who walk in integrity-

In fact the king finds that Daniel and his friends are unrivaled in matters concerning wisdom and understanding in all the land, securing a fair bit of the king's trust I'd imagine.

Daniel 12 describes a vision that Daniel has about a future time. The vision is very cryptic and even Daniel, who in verse 1.17 was said to be able to understand visions and dreams of every kind, doesn't quite follow!

I think its clear that v12.2 talks about the resurrection. What worries me how it talks about 2 distinct groups, one awakening to everlasting life, the other to shame and everlasting contempt... which group will I find myself in? It goes on to say that the wise will shine, the ones who lead many to righteousness like the stars.

Another thing that I should note is that Daniel 12 takes place around a river, the Tigris. When I think of river imagery, I'm reminded of Ezekiel 47, which talks about a massive river that flows to the Dead Sea, that will fill it with life.

Finally in verse 12.9, it talks about how the wicked will not understand. Proverbs describes the wicked, as the foolish, morally deficient people who insist on ignoring wisdom, the ones who do not fear the Lord.

In light of these 2 chapters, I think we could all stand to gain from understanding "understanding" and "wisdom".




Fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge. [Proverbs 1.7]

[Day 3] Proverbs 3

.28 Do not say to your neighbor, "Come back later, I'll give it tomorrow"- when you now have it with you.

I felt a bit of a pang when I saw this one. This week alone, I think this scenario has been played out quite a few times. I'd either be busy doing something else and reluctant to stop what I'm doing to attend to someone else, or I'm feeling lazy, or I simply can't be bothered to help, when it was really within my capacity to help anyway. I think what is even more perverse when I actually then decide to "help" my "neighbor" on the basis that they're nice to me, or I stand to gain, etc.

Father I come to You with a heart that is not content remaining this way. I'm sick of procrastination, I'm sick of excuses. Show me how to love my neighbors as You have loved me. Teach me to stand firm with strength, and not to lie back and seek and sink into comfort.

[Day 2] Proverbs 2

.7 He stores up sound wisdom for the upright and is a shield to those who walk in integrity-

.20 This is how you will walk in the way of good men and will keep to the paths of the righteous.

Solomon insists that fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge. Chapter 2 starts off with a whole sales pitch for knowledge and understanding, the benefits of embracing wisdom. Wisdom comes from God, and He speaks understanding and knowledge into our hearts. He guards and protects those are upright and walk in integrity (remembering that in chapter 1, Solomon indicates a wise person as one who is morally aware). Solomon then begins describing paths that we shouldn't go down, ending the list with adultery, specifically warning men to avoid slutty women. A man who can steer clear of all these things, the upright and people of integrity will live in the land, but the wicked, the people who act against wisdom, will perish and be removed.

I think wisdom is now so much more to me than just being clever. And I think especially now, wisdom is crucial in my life. To walk upright is incredibly hard, considering the lies that are piled over us every single day. But if we seek the right stuff, the righteous stuff, then there will also be wisdom to reject those lies, we can trust in our Creator's unyielding steadfastness. I believe that money does not equate to success. I believe that self(ish)-gain is self-destruction, especially if that gain involves someone else's loss, as is often the case. I believe that sex was never meant to sell, and neither should selling have anything to do with sex.

Creator, You are holy. Help me understand what You have purposed for this Earth, and allow me to align myself to Your agenda. Father, pour out Your wisdom on me, fill me with understanding of the times. Show me where Your Kingdom has begun, where it will be advanced. Open up my eyes that I may see, and unblock my eyes that I may hear, so that I do not treat Your sons and daughters as any less than the children of the most high King.

[Day 1] Proverbs 1

.23 If you had responded to my rebuke, I would have poured my hear out to you and made known my thoughts to you.

.29 Since they hated knowledge and did not choose to fear the Lord,

.31 they will eat the fruit of their ways and be filled with the fruit of their schemes.

I think, often wisdom calls us, nags at us even. But there are many times when our hearts have already determined what they want to hear and ignores it. Solomon gives wisdom a personality in the passage of scripture, and Wisdom seems to be quite eager to speak into us, but she also indicates that many reject her. In this chapter, Solomon actually refers to fools, the Hebraic word for which indicates one who is morally deficient. Does it mean then, that wisdom is tied to goodness? Wisdom also makes it clear that there are consequences for those who do not listen.

I've been in many situations where I had already known that things would turn out badly if I did a certain thing, but sometimes, be it out of curiosity, arrogance, or pride (not stupidity mind you), I'm just "need" to see what it feels or looks like. And of course, things turn out badly. I'm sure we've all been in some situation like that. Call it instinct, insight, a feeling, I think I could do a bit better (i.e. my thumb wouldn't be wrapped in bandages right now) if I took heed more often. Of course experiences can serve to teach as well. And oftentimes Wisdom is drawn from experience. But if Wisdom calls out... I believe it's best to listen.

Father, for all I've done, all the times I've screwed up, all the people I've hurt, all the horrible things I've said, forgive me. Forgive me the depravities that plague me on so many levels. Creator, giver of all life, thank You for Your grace, thank You for your healing. Increase my wisdom and understanding, and then increase my willingness to listen. Fill my heart with awe and wonder, and desire to learn more and more. Amen.

Expeditioners are go!

I believe that our community has actually come to a point where it is crucial for us to see. In the midst of all the shaking and exposing of our weaknesses, I believe that it is important for us to discover what is truly good and stable, to re-discover the foundations that were laid before us that still remain, and will remain. And I saw this for myself last night. As many members of community gathered to pray, I saw the desperation for revelation of a desperate people, ready to lay down and crucify their comforts and cravings, ready to deny flesh leadership over our lives. Ready to be set aside for a holy purpose. We are a people who are deeply dissatisfied with the state of the world, the city, and even our community, and we are a people who have begun preparations. Preparations for change, for reform, for a revolution.

And so for the next 40 days, as we stand together, bound by our deep desire, for fresh insight and for glimpses of what our Creator has begun in heaven, we also join in fasting. Some of us from food, some from facebook (myself included, you'll notice that my profile has disappeared), some from chocolates or snacks. I myself am fasting from my snooze button and I intend to wake up at 7 every morning in order to create space to seek.

Fueledbymaggi will now be a space that will (hopefully) be updated for the next 40 days with my SOAP entries, beginning tonight. As we embark on the journey, I pray that wisdom will not leave us, that understanding will fill our minds. I pray for clarity to be poured into our minds, I pray that our hearts remain pure, I pray for strength each day, I pray that Christ gives us rest, and I pray that we will become a people who find favour in the eyes of our Creator. Father, drop Your thoughts into us, show us Your heart, and lead us on.

And now folks, on with the journey!

In Expedition, ideas think of you.

I had a really good chat with Nick on thursday night, we played around with a some ideas and here are a few we discussed.

Sonship.

Here's an idea Nick put forward. Suppose circumstance puts you in a position where on one hand, the law dictates that punishment is required, and yet on the other hand you're holding on to grace. Like the example Nick uses is the worship team. Practice time begins at 7.30 AM, not any later. And then one of the guys show up at 8 with a hangover. On one hand, do you show grace and forgive and say "hey, it's ok, just get set up and let's go."? On the other hand, the law in this case is very clear, so do you punish the guy and not let him play? And either way it's difficult, it's got pros and cons. After all, it was by grace that the law was given. Well maybe not in this case, but for arguments sake anyway.

But what if its not even about deciding between grace or law at all? Nick describes this concept he's been thinking of, sonship. What does it mean to be an heir of the Kingdom? What does it mean to be a son, and where then is our place in our Father's house?

It's not too simple, we still have no idea what it looks like, how it's lived out. As Nick puts it, it's just words that haven't been made flesh.

I've given it a bit more thought, and it makes a little bit more sense now (to me at least). Suppose you have a friend over at your house. Legally your father is the owner of the house, but he is your father after all, and you call it your own house as well. Now, say your friend has this urge to draw on your wall or set your rug on fire for whatever reason. He can't, it's against the rules of the house, it's against the law, and there will be undesirable consequences should he try. But for you, you wouldn't want to draw on the wall or set the rug on fire at all, its your house after all.

And so, may be that's what sonship looks like. You take ownership of the law, and it just becomes your lifestyle, and you don't even want to do anything that isn't good for your house, your Father's kingdom.

Then again, your house is also a house of grace. If your friend spills coffee on the rug by accident, then really, so what? Your father doesn't mind, the rug can be cleaned. And you can even make your friend a new cup of coffee. And after all, its not as though you've never spilled coffee on the rug before, and when you did, its not as though your father didn't forgive you.

So you still hold grace in one hand and the law in the other, but they belong to your Father. If you take up your role as a son of God, you also take up ownership of these family heirlooms.

I still can't imagine living this out, but it sounds like its going somewhere.



Right it's really late, we talked about some other stuff but I'll save that for another time, I'm really tired right now. Lack of sleep has finally caught up with me. Class again.. first thing in the morning, booooo.

Right, bye.

record low/high in chris' wanttopunchsomethinginthefaceness

its pretty simple. chris (i will refer to myself in the third person for the duration of this post, no particular reason other than i'll fuhuhuhuhucking do what i like) spent the whole night/morning working on a japanese assignment and finally retired at 6.30 AM. well no, he laid his weary head to rest at half past six, but only fell asleep much later, most probably due to his immense disappointment in not being able to accomplish what he sacrificed so many hours of sleep to do.

and then he woke up at 8 to go for class. and now he's just arrived back home to print out some lecture notes (and rant at you of course) and he'll be off to class again in another 15 minutes.

low. yes, chris feels so low right now.

but at the same time, he's feeling pretty invincible. no way in hell would chris ever go for a full day of class on an hour of sleep. never. look at him go. woohoo. physics lab was a breeze for him, look at him go! wooohooo...







ahem.

excuse me while i go bury my face in a pillow and allow my brain the luxury of collapsing.

right.

shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit is all i can honestly say right now. cause everything else going through my mind right now conflicts with everything else going through my mind right now conflicts with everything else going through my mind right now conflicts with everything else going through my mind right now conflicts with everything else going through my mind right now conflicts with ev- wait.

shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.


here's a thought experiment. every 10 seconds i'm going to jot down what i'm thinking.

how are you feeling yes i'm feeling how are you feeling yes i'm feeling how are you feeling are you feeling ok...

... maybe i should turn off the music.

nghhh. incoherence i'm so today tired.

pressure cracking weight burden roar.

think i want you to think i want you to think i want you oh no...

oh nooooooooooo oh no oh oh oh.

why? so hard... think i'll wreck i think i'll wreck you i think i'll wreck you oh no.

this sucks. its not going anywhere.

dammit i really should turn that music off.

too catchy. oh noooooooooo oh no oh oh. i love kaisercartel.

what a mess. guitar. wooo guitar.

noooooooo guitar... so much stuff.

women's conference. busking. spring concert. need to practice.

dammit need to study. stop procrastinating.

definitely need to stop procrastinating. soon.

guitar. need a new phone. phone's gone haywire.

how are you feeling yes i'm feeling how are you feeling yes i'm feeling how are you feeling are you feeling ok?

kaisercartel on repeat?

need to sleep. now. seriously.

melting down, i'm burning out.

i'mtooproudtoaskforhelp.helpme.helpme.help.

here comes excuses... why i let you down.

standby for another breakdown.




standby. i think.

i think i'm shutting down.

OH. Before I forget.

Guess who got a busking permit?




Hehe. I'll see you on Swanston Street.

What if it was you? (ooOOooohOOoooH)

Forgot about the pictures again, sorry. Still out using wireless outside cause my internet's still not good.

[It Had to be You - Motion City Soundtrack] is playing on repeat on my iTunes. My heart's in a really weird state right now. I have no idea. I can't get [Sometime Around Midnight - Airborne Toxic Event] out of my head either. Why? Hmm.
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I had a great time frightening possums, learning the 8-step, and mucking around on swings and slides last night. Gelatti at Freddo's first, and a good time at the Carlton gardens. Singing about... Kookaburras on gum trees.

Kris was telling me about this time when she saw a Sudanese family at the playground. A Sudanese woman, covered from head to toe, was sitting on the swing and laughing and having a great time with her kids as they laughed and pushed her. It's a beautiful picture that Kris described as what humanity could look like.

I'm going to hold hope for that. For humanity. For love.

Excursion

It's nice to get away from the city. The city's just so full of students/middle-aged people, and the only time people seem to stop is for a coffee or something. Or. I don't know, life's just too fast-paced. I really enjoyed today's little excursion to CERES. It's a really nifty community type place, where everything's green, solar panels, organic vegetables and all that. It's a pretty hippie type vibe, but it's probably the first time I've actually seen kids playing here. Kids out with their families having a good time.

Pictures I have, but some other time. Internet's still down and I'm out somewhere using a wireless connection.

Studies. Please get a move on Chris. Time's running out. Enough chill, it's time to buckle down and knuckle down some work. Electromagnetism. Genetics and Evolution. Entropy and Gibbs Free Energy. Japanese Assignment. 5 days to go.

Please refresh me... please restore me... before I burn out.

New Season

So the layout is a lot simpler than what I had originally envisioned, but my half-hearted efforts at learning blogspot-friendly html couldn't get me very far, so this will suffice for now.

The songwriting thing isn't going too bad, but I'm not exactly overflowing with ideas and inspiration either. I need some time off. The workload really got to me, and even though I'm supposed to be on holiday, I'm finding it really hard to just hang loose. Plus, I'm so unprepared for this Friday. I don't know what I'll do when I apply for the permit.

I'm off to a rocky start.

I need space.

Safe space.

Room to grow, and room to break.

A fairly accurate representation of the current situation.

Assignment due tomorroooooooooooooooooooow! i'm gonna kick some ass. i don't care.

sleep is for the pwned.

i'll stay up all night if i have to, i won't be denied my 1337ness.




please save me. =(

i'm a liar

so... i'm more than a week late. things are crazy, assignments, tests and all that jazz.

so i've only uploaded one song (that i finished on time) on purevolume. the other one will have to wait til a more opportune time. critique please. i was going to say i'll probably get more done during my midsem break, but i can't, cause i'm so behind in physics and bio... and chem... and jap. so chlorineyes will probably have to go on indefinite hiatus. just like system of a down. though, it's rumored they'll play together again. really soon. at eurovision or something, or is that already over? i have not time to know what i'm talking about, so instead of talking more ass i'll be heading off for my last class for today and then it's off to the dandenongs for the weekend! bye guys.


chris out.

One down

One more to go.

Aiming to get it done by Wednesday noon time, and then it'll be on purevolume. I'm beginning to realsie for every lecture I missed, it takes at least an hour and a half to catch up. I have missed I think 9 bio lectures. Chem is much easier, I think about 3 hours should be enough to catch up everything I missed. And then it's around half an hour revision for every lecture I attend. Physics is a bit of a problem though, I've missed some critical lectures and I haven't even gotten round to printing the lecture notes. Can't wait for the midsem break... to study.

Heart of Worship

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worhip
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much you deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is yours
Every single breath



Creator, all that You've imagined and invented, I can only scratch on a microscopic level. Who could know the depths of Your wisdom? Father, come and save and know my deepest thoughts, and think to me Your thoughts. Reveal in your creation Your nature, Your heart, Your perfect love.




Proverbs 25:2
It is the glory of God to conceal a matter; To search out matter is the glory of kings.

Oh its been a while

Everytime I meet a singer-songwriter I get all inspired, even if I've never heard any of their songs. Maybe not inspired, but reminded, cause everything's I can see is inspiring. After all, the spirit in me is the spirit of the Creator.

Hoping to record another 2 songs soon.

And. Winston would like to make a shoutout: HARROW WORLDDDDDD!!!!

Anyway, last night I thought Jane and co. did a great job of hosting a discussion about Batman and the kind of saviour we need today. Was really enjoyable watching everyone dig so deep into the movie for truths and gold. And the night before, we (being mostly Aaron and Devon) rearranged the stage, the drum cage is now in the middle and overall it just looks and sounds brilliant. Then we jammed, and I reckon everyone was just waiting for that moment. Was really cool, I swear, Devon, Guo Jin, and Aaron are the funkiest trio I've ever seen. Their groove is just so tight, it's incredible. And then Tim, Ann Boo (what a kickass name), and I joined in and it was all so much fun.


So I've begun writing this song and I'm not entirely sure what it's about, just like how I'm not entirely sure what's happening right now, spring seemingly approaching and Uncle David's passing (rest in peace). Hmm. New season. Quite excited to see what's in store.



Friend.

Hey winter,
There's a spring in your step,
Where are you going?
Can't we weave though the city,
One more time? Like we do every sleepless night?

Hey winter,
Friend, it seems your frozen heart is warming,
Still you took another man with you,
And though I didn't know him, many I know knew.

But no you're not getting any further now,
You still linger like storm clouds of perfume.


Ok, so I think I'll stop here. Hopefully, will finish up the song and start recording. Took a video of the rough gist of the song. So, yeh. Hopefully I won't be too swamped with stuff this week. Bye.

The iPod Game. (tagged)

oook lol, i usually ignore being tagged but this is too (potentially) funny to pass off.



The Measure of How Well Your iPod Really Knows You

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.
4. Write the answers down, or even comment on it.
5. Tag 5 people.

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1. How are you feeling today?
Bad - U2

hey, that's not true. i'm finally done with exams! but i suppose jap was pretty sucky.

2. Will you get far in life?
There is a Light That Never Goes Out - Anberlin

oh yeh.

3. What’s your best friend’s theme song?
Ada Apa Denganmu - Peterpan

oh wow... interesting.

4. What is the story of your life?
You Are My God - Planetshakers

yeh, my mbp does know me well.

5. What was school like?
Noise and Kisses - The Used

oh shit. getting a bit too honest there...

6. How can you get ahead with life?
The Little Things - Colbie Cailat

well... yeh, i guess. could be the big things too, i wouldn't know.

7. Whats the best thing about your friends?
Automatic Heart - Goodnight Electric

uhm... why? but... sort of i guess... as in they know what to expect from me?

8. Describe your grandparents.
A Message - Coldplay

no idea.

9. How’s your life going?
Been A Son - Nirvana

as opposed to... i'm a daughter now? i mean. yeh... i have been a son all this time.

10. What will be played at my funeral?
White As Snow - Jon Foreman

yay! a sad sounding song about great stuff! its perfect.

11. Will you have a happy life?
Must've Done Something Right - Relient K

WOOHOO!

12. What do your friends really think of you?
Rooftops - Lostprophets

"Will we make our mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?"
I guess with all the big questions that we wrestle through in life, we're in it together hey?

13. Do people secretly lust after you?
Your New Twin Sized Bed - Deathcab for Cutie

oh... i guess not...
"With a single pillow underneath your single head...
I guess you decided that old queen was more space than you would need...
Now its in the alley behind the apartment that says 'free'..."

14. How can you make yourself happy?
Laser Gun Electro Boy - Goodnight Electric

yeh! ...sure...

15. Will you ever have children?
Super Mario Bros. Theme - Konji Kondo

hehehe

16. What song would you strip to?
Heart Songs - Weezer

I don't think so...

17. What does your mom think of you?
Sleep - Taking Back Sunday

well, yeh, she does complain that i sleep too late. too late being later than 9.

18. What is your deep, dark secret?
Wow - Snow Patrol

AHAHAHA are you serious?! I haven't played for like... oh wait. as in... world of warcraft right...? oh shi-

19. What is your enemy’s theme song?
The Change Inside of Me - Mercy Me

considering i haven't had an enemy for ages... i guess that's kind of true. people change.

20. What’s your personality like?
Mungki Nanti - Peterpan

er... i... i dunnooooo =(

21. What will be played at your wedding?
The Light That Blinds - Shadows Fall

not a chance. possibly the first 30 seconds. but any further than that and my guests would probably drop dead.

see for yourself.


anyway, that was fun. i now tag:

1. Chancey
2. Ooi Didi
3. Douglas
4. Gabriel
5. Mop


I'm still in the middle of writing a proper long post. actually, i might have to post some stuff parts at a time. Bye!

What's with these homies dissin' my girl?

HAHA!

Pork and Beans by Weezer. This is officially my favorite music video. Today. I don't know bout tomorrow. Or what it's like to be. Ahh.

Oh sorry.

Here.

Earth

Home.

I'm a permanent resident.


Hmm. I'd like to complain about increasing fuel prices. But really. It's not like we've got a whole lot of it left anyway. Electricity costs have also risen. I suppose one solution would be to use less. Hmm. Making changes to our incredibly comfortable lifestyle?

No way! It's our right as citizens to use as much electricity as we want... right?

I don't feel talking about it because there's still so much that I myself need to resolve and reconcile, but I really need to get this off my chest. Like, what are we doing about our neighbors who don't even have electricity? Or clean water? Why is it such a big deal that our "necessities" come at a higher price when we deny these necessities to others. Ah forgive me for being cryptic. I'm trying to see how far I can go without being a hypocrite.

My point is... ok, I'll admit, this was more or less because everyone started complaining about the 2.70RM/litre price hike. It also reminded me of the miniature world video Greg put up.

43% of the world live without basic sanitation.
30% of the world have bank accounts.
7% are educated at secondary level.


If you have a fridge to store food, closet to keep clothes, a bed to sleep in, and a roof over your head, lucky you.
Cause 75% of the world doesn't.

18% struggle to live on 1USD or less a day. (about RM3.20)
53% struggle to live on 2USD or less a day. (about RM6.50)


Granted, these stats are old, and are probably much worse now. That's the way the economy of the developed world works, the rich get richer and the poor get poorer.


I used to think preventing global warming was important, but not a huge priority cause I was gonna die before the shit hits the fan anyway. Well, that was pretty selfish, and in fact foolish, cause... I've only got one home.


Sustainable Development is defined as meeting the needs of today without compromising the ability of future generations ability to meet their needs. Learnt that in the second week of engineering. That seems like a perfectly normal thing to do right? I mean, obviously never intend to make life hard for our grandkids. But humans are just so shortsighted. No one really worries about the consequences if they can make a quick buck. No one worries about the consequences unless its immediately and obviously harmful. And no one worries about the consequences until the shit hits the fan. And even then, some are still capable of pretending there are no consequences.

I don't know folks. I've just yelled an incoherent mess. And in some sense, this is the beginning of my apology to my home, for all the damage I've done. It's also the indication that I've got my foot somewhere along the journey of the redemption of my home.


Am I a treehugger? How many people strive each day to put money into a dream retirement home fund? I know where I'm spending retirement, and retirement's gonna last an eternity. Can you blame me?

Laminin

Okay folks, biology lesson today. Let's talk about my favorite protein, Laminin.

They [Laminin] are a family of glycoproteins that are an integral part of the structural scaffolding in almost every animal tissue. [1]

Basement membranes are basically dense layers of protein sheets found underneath organs, like your lungs, or your blood vessels, or even your skin.

The laminin in basement membranes is produced by many different cells, and is involved in just as many activities, like cell adhesion, migration and differentiation, embryonic development, and forming or re-forming blood vessels during healing of wounds. [2]

Laminin is pretty much what's holding your body together, and repairing it.

Great stuff isn't it? In other words, without laminin, you're fu (i believe the technical term is) screwed.


But that's not all. You know what really gets me about laminin?

Take a look.


Incredible huh?

There's a video about it on youtube by Louie Giglio.


Now to practice my referencing skillz.

1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Laminin, 29 May 2008.
   
2. Li J, Zhang Y-P, Kirsner RS. Angiogenesis in wound repair: Angiogenic growth factors and the extracellular matrix. (2003)
   

Hey Everyone

Go click on that button on the right there, the purevolume one. I just wrote a new song and its called The Orphans and the Widows. Try and guess what its about. It's not funny at all. In fact its about the homeless people on the streets. Kind of. But I wrote it because of the cyclone in Burma and earthquakes in China that have orphaned and widowed so many people. I was kind of inspired by Ai Hui actually, just went for her pre-album launch mini show.

Click Here for Ai Hui's Myspace.

I really love her stuff, I'm so getting her album. It's worth a listen, she's a terrific songwriter and she's got a beautiful voice.

So yeh, I've kind of picked up my guitar and pickled my brain a bit more, and hopefully more songs coming. By the way, I'm kinda happy with how the song turned out, but I think it's not final. Will be adding more touches to it, debating on whether to add drums and bass or not. i should probably get a semi-acoustic.

Love, Chris.

edit: note the new banner up top. watch the video and find out more...

reflectivejournal?oplz.

i'm in the middle of an engineering assignment, its called a reflective journal. basically its an almost weekly thing and we get different things to write about each time. it just so happens that this time we're supposed to write about academic honesty?


"academic honesty? wtf is that?"


like... plagiarism and stuff. but how do you write 2 to 3 paragraphs on academic honesty?


omg. i just got an idea.


i'll just look for someone else's writings on academic honesty and paraphrase it and then cite it, awesome!


honestly. what can i write?


"oh gee yeh, its really important that engineers don't take credit for other people's work even though they do it all the time anyway."


anyway.

Colossians 3:23
And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men;

so i'll stop whining and get to it as soon as i post up pictures.


Dandenongs trip!


Climbing up the hill! From left, Paul, Aileen, Me! (in a beanie), George, and Greg.


Sarah, Josh (kneeling), Vinay, George, Isaac (bald guy =), Aileen (kneeling also), Kyrstal (in blue), Cheryl, Shin Yi, Me (beanie), Greg, Roshan, Paul, and Brian. Missing Tim again cause he took the photo.


Greg, beside the fireplace.


And Tim teaching.


Autumn trees.


Vibrant coloured bird on the deck.


Another cute little bird next to the breakfast table.


At breakfast, Aileen and Jason.


Roshan, Brian, Tim (lol) and Cheryl (lol).



Vinay, Joshua, Shin Yi, and Greg.

edit: PANORAMARAMARAMAshots. By Tim.







So yeh. The Dandenongs. Had a great time there, thanks to Tim and Isaac and al the 101 folks.



oh by the way.

Check it out! Flower on my macbookpro!


Mmhmm.


I got my Jim Dunlop Jazz III's! YAY!

ook

i won't shut it down.

haha.

had a gig on thursday night. quite fun, should've focused more on the show than the music though. music was gonna turn out pretty bad cause of the equipment anyway. ah well. i bought a multi effects processor prior to the show, so i worked some wah into my solo, which was pretty cool. too bad i couldn't really hear me throughout the show anyway.

don't think i'll post the video cause the quality's not very good. you can't really hear much of the music, mostly random background conversations.

had a great time at the dandenongs over the weekend with tim and the other guys on the life 101 course. such a beautiful place.

i think i've used my brain much harder over the few weeks on the life 101 course than the entire semester at uni. i've come to realise how much i've let my mind be dulled over the years. sad to think that sometimes i get to the point where i'm tired of thinking. oh well. i've been thinking lately. what am i doing in engineering?


i want to be an arts student.


but i'm my parents are asian. haha. classic excuse.


no i don't know if i want to be an arts student, i don't know what i want anymore. clearly maths isn't my strong point. but clearly people get good at maths after insane amounts of practice anyway. i just don't. want. to. do. math.

hmm. i don't think engineering was my decision though. it was my choice. chose to do it despite knowing i fail at maths. now i need more faith to carry this through.


oh well. physics test on wednesday. gotta start studying for that.

later folks.

The Heart of God

"Creator... Father, Abba... Abba... how? I love you, my God, I long to worship You... but how? I can't see You, I can't touch you... no image I can conjure up in my head can even begin to scratch the surface of who You are... how do I worship You?"

Can you see yourself giving Me your heart?

"Yeh, but look God, I've got my heart out here in front of me, my hands are outstretched, holding my heart out to... to... I can't see past that God! Beyond that is just... unknown..."

Good. That's what I want from you.





Just a few weeks ago, the space that Life* Expedition uses for its sunday meetings hosted a massive gathering of the church of Melbourne. An incredible weekend, I was given a chance to work at the Forge Grassroots Festival and listen to all the speakers from all over, and to meet sons and daughters of God from all kinds of cultures, dreadlocks, fire twirling. The churches around Melbourne are becoming THE church of Melbourne, and this unity is not some far off dream. This is a vision coming to pass. And that's what The Gathering is about, uniting the church of Melbourne.

I had an opportunity to lay down everything I was carrying, and really just have a chat with this God that I tell people I love.

Giving God our heart is risky business. But not really hey. I was confronted, and I came to a point where I had to ask, am I ready to give m heart to God? To take all my worries, my desires and lift them up to this being I can't see? To give my heart into an unknown future, to trust a plan in which I have no control of?

Well, its not very hard to give someone 10 dollars for a roast chicken. But if you give a million dollars not knowing what to get back... it's a little tougher.






"Well... ok God, I'm ready. I have faith in You... wait... what... what will You give now that I've given You my heart?"

Chris, I will give you My own heart.






Friends, I really just want to call your attention away from all the distractions, problems, inconveniences of the world and take a moment to scale up. What's going on that is bigger than you? And bigger than that?

I've got a God who promised to resurrect me after I die. Friends, I love you, and my love is inspired by a God who redeemed (re-valued) me. He loved me so much that He sent the only son He had to die. And His son, willingly laid down His life for me. Why? I'm a sinner, I lie, I lust, I fall so far short of the mark. How does someone willingly die like that?

Because He understood that death was temporary. He knew the God of life, of resurrection.

Guys... I didn't mean to get preachy, but you have to understand, I'm filled so full, I'm bursting with love...

God loves you. I know because the moment I began to receive His heart, I was overwhelmed with love.


Love and blessings,

Chris

Once again

FBM has died. I'd hate to shut it down though. I don't have the time or the means to create a new layout (no photoshop), and without a new layout i simply don't have the mood to write. that was pretty much the reason why my layout would change every now and then.

i guess... we'll wait and see. i may move over to purevolume from now on. unlikely though. until i get some recording done. a cover song is currently in the works. we'll see how that goes.

i suppose a final* update would be good.

i'm in a band called S.O.U.L.** as guitarist who just doesn't feel that emo vibe the songwriters churn out, i get through about 3 assignments a week, i've pretty much mastered the art of kolo mee, i think i got sunburnt today despite the fact that it was 9 degrees Celsius.

hmm. interesting times.








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*most likely not final.

**stands for sorrows of an unforgiving lifetime. no, i was not involved in the naming process. yes they- we write our own stuff.

Happy Easter Folks

First, let me tell a joke.

What do you get when you cross a bungee cord, and an owl?


anyway, watch this:



its so funny.



and this is really true.



ok then, well i hope everyone had a spectacular easter (break) hehe.

i did.

weekend i was at camp Manyung, an hour away from Melbourne. beautiful place, look:



drive down to Mornington


view from my room


my roommate Chua


walked down to the beach


beautiful, no?


later that night


aaron su, on the last day


isaac su, haha they're brothers


tim took us to a nearby vineyard to have a look


really sweet garden


the guys


macro skills


with a digital camera? pfft.


so the girls had a good time there too


guys were just like, yeh its a garden

finally

the weekend is here! oh man. such a long day. oh so looooong. and now, i'll not be around for the weekend. tomorrow morning i'm leaving. somewhere. back on sunday. will take pics, should be nice. bye.

chris needs your help.

if you have experience with MATLAB, please contact chris at chlaw@student.unimelb.edu.au

if you've never heard of MATLAB, you are very blessed.


i mean.

Calculate the mass of CO2 used per day for using disposable paper towels
on MATLAB. Submit your script and answer.

srsly?


but i mean yeh. just. i.

i dunno what to do.

pictures

looks very black and white... so i thought i'd post some.


welcome to tha hood, son, this is strictly 4 my ninjaz.

ninja transform!

ninja shred.

more shred.

even more shred.

so i really like my milk tea.

but i only had water.

so i drank the water.

how was it you ask? hmm...

it was good.


there, i wasted another 5 mins of your life telling a pointless story using *clever* subliminal pictures.

sup tulang is an art

its not easy folks. i mean, i just had, really awesome fish for dinner. i got a fillet of basa and i lightly rubbed curry powder and salt into it and let it sit there. in the meantime, i fry some sliced potatoes in rosemary infused olive oil. oh so nice the aroma. sprinkled salt, and done. get the potatoes on the plate, leave the pan on, and chuck in some onions. few seconds later, in goes the fish, pan fried on both sides till the fish is nicely done, not overcooked, but not raw either, just perfect. that's what i like about basa. so easy to cook. when it was done, i contemplated taking a picture. but i was too hungry. all this time i'd been stewing some oxtail soup. some onion, tomatoes, and of course, the oxtails. i added the carrots later when i remembered. but yeh. shit. so hard to make good sup tulang.

so yeh. expect a lot of food to pop up in my posts. not much else to blog about.

Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; Do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.


props to cheekoh for sending that verse to me. just looked at it and thought "wow. that's awesome timing."

life in melbourne alone is generally kinda boring wherever you are i guess. sure there's friends around, but everyone's just too tired to get up and go see each other... then you bump into each other in the market and you're like "oh... hey... haven't seen you in a while. oh you're busy... yeh, k bye."

of course there's that other crowd, "lets party yeh! go clubbing and get wasted and laugh about it tomorrow!" i don't drink. i'm not an idiot either;

Matthew 5:
33"Again, you have heard that it was said to the people long ago, 'Do not break your oath, but keep the oaths you have made to the Lord.' 34But I tell you, Do not swear at all: either by heaven, for it is God's throne; 35or by the earth, for it is his footstool; or by Jerusalem, for it is the city of the Great King. 36And do not swear by your head, for you cannot make even one hair white or black. 37Simply let your 'Yes' be 'Yes,' and your 'No,' 'No'; anything beyond this comes from the evil one.

"I promised God i wouldn't drink... until my a levels are over." oh yeh. real tough chris. foolish. pfft. oh well. you learn as you go along. but yeh the point is. my human reasoning for not wanting to drink was cause it was expensive and i didn't want to risk letting it get in the way of my studying. and beer makes you fat. almost as bad as coke.

so... the point of this ranting... is lost to me. really. uhm. i dunno. i guess what i'm trying to say is i'm happy with where i stand, and i'm sort of still in the process of mapping out where exactly i'm standing.

but one thing's for sure. its time to cultivate a discipline. i'm ready. i'm just sorry it took so long. thanks for waiting. here i go.

Elections?

First of all, poor show Sabah. poor show. 51 or 52 out of 54 seats... to BN?

Secondly, Anwar's performance was quite impressive. managing to forge a loose alliance with the other opposition parties was most probably why they managed to win so many seats in peninsular.

seems they're ready for change... what happened sabah? beloved homeland? what's this "why the fuck are you still talking about politics? its so boring, you think they give a shit what you think? nothings going to change anyway" attitude?

are your ready to eat your words yet? cause your west side counterparts are moving forwards, and we... still lag. lag because of political apathy. political nonchalance.

if you think about it, really BN has been really idiotic in that they kept lashing out at bloggers. well hello, old skoolers, the internet wins. Opposition, through the internet, managed to get the other side of the story across, with far more compelling evidence, despite their lack of radio/tv/newspaper accessibility. opposition was basically winning over most of the younger, educated generation.

but chris, surely we got those in kk too right ya is it not? we got internets?


yeh... internet... what do you do with it?

1. friendster
2. facebook
3. uhm... limwire...
4. ... porn?


hmm. you didn't know what anyone from the opposition was talking about did you? cause you never really heard what they had to-

oh yeh chris wait, youtube!

-ok, you never really heard what the opposition had to say. i lost my train of thought...


anyway, i'm stereotyping grossly unfairly. but the truth remains, that most of the votes in sabah came from the rural hoods, the kampungs, where BN funding and socio-economic policies are beneficial. and when i say funding of course i really mean bribe money. hmm... what happened to the educated people? oh right, they figured out that anywhere is better than sabah right? THAT, is unfair. even if you don't want to live there, at least send in a vote for that other guy.

you know, the clever one? yeh, i want a clever guy running my country someday. not someone who'll spend millions of dollars on a mosque with a crystal dome and then smile at you and say "see? what would you do without me?" when the ROADS that lead to that mosque, or everywhere else for that matter, are badly damaged, poorly maintained etc. and we're talking about roads that malaysians use, all malaysians. do all malaysians use that mosque?

priorities?

KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia (AP) -- An international human rights group said Wednesday it fears Malaysians will not get a fair vote in this week's general elections because of an uneven playing field favoring the ruling National Front coalition.

New York-based Human Rights Watch urged Malaysia to eradicate bias from the electoral process. Opposition and activist groups say the process is rife with irregularities.

Malaysian law minister Nazri Abdul Aziz denied the allegations, accusing Human Rights Watch of discrediting the elections because "they know the National Front will win."

"To me, Human Rights Watch is biased. They are not important at all. It's only their opinion," he told The Associated Press.

Group Warns on Malaysia Elections, (March 4 2008)
http://www.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/asiapcf/03/04/malaysia.elections.ap/index.html as of March 11 2008

yeh. i laughed too. ridiculous isn't it, to think that this is the kind of response an authoritative figure in our country would give.


a lot of talk of racial tension too. we're not allowed to go celebrate or anything apparently. says the sheriff, the policeman all other police call boss. worried that another racially charged riot will ensue. let me tell you something about racially charged riots. they're started by people who feel there should be racially charged issues. ie. UMNO. nah ok, that's again another unfair accusation based on rumours. rumours? yes, i've heard some rumours. but i won't bother posting them. why? because i'm still afraid of the ISA.

yep. that draconic tool that allows ANYONE to be arrested with NO trial whatsoever. you are automatically assumed guilty, and the court doesn't even DARE challenge that assumption.


check out this article. written by an Australian political scientist in malaysia, specializing in malaysian politics. i have to say, when i hear about foreigners actually taking interest in how we run our countries, its quite encouraging. because it means we might one day actually have FAIR elections, because of their pressure. otherwise we 're bound to uncover some big election scandal and that could be ok too i guess. that way, we'd learn and progress you see.




BUT. now i want to write about me.

lots of not so nice things have happened to me in melbourne, far too many to list, i simply can't be bothered.

today, no exception, BUT, i'm still freakin happy.

lets take a look.

insanely far classes to walk to.
insanely hot dry weather.
insanely boring classes.
cooked rice and pak choy for dinner, and intended to make spare ribs, since i swam so hard today. well, got the rice, got the pak choy, but i burnt the ribs. BURNT. to the point where it screamed "I AM CANCER PERSONIFIED!" so i had to bin it.
i started opening a can of luncheon meat, but the pin was rusty and i cut myself. so much blood. and eventually, using my mad engineering skillz, i managed to salvage the pin, rework the tin a bit, and finish opening the damn thing. then i had to cook it. when i finally sat down to have my humble meal, the rice was cold and hard, and my veges cold and soggy.
i had enough sense to make soup as well, boiling some ribs to use as stock. so i figured, well, i'll still have some ribs at least. not nicely marinaded but good enough.. where's the soya sauce, mm ok.
but the ribs weren't cooked. wtf? i've been boiling the soup with onions and tomatoes for 3 hours and its not cooked?
and you know you can't eat uncooked pork.
i just patched up my thumb cause all that itching and throbbing finally got my attention again.

But you know what?


I just couldn't help but feel happy today.

because I'm God's beloved. He loves me as I am, whether I reciprocate His love or not. He's not out to make my life difficult like i used to believe (whether i realized or not), and somehow my whole attitude towards life just changed overnight.

and yes Gabriel, if you're reading this, it's largely because i was listening to the Grace and Favour sermons by Joseph Prince. but yeh, today, it felt like God was constantly prodding my back and going "Take it easy son. No big deal."

"pfft. yeh. you're right. HAHA."


don't think about how much you love God. think about how much He loves you.

so i kinda lied about no more food blogging... so i might as well tell you bout my awesome STEAK AND FRIES. yep, simple gravy this time, just a reduced red shiraz sauce, much nicer, and of course fries. i have a huge patch of deep fried skin on my middle finger now. stupid fries. ahah. oh and yesterday i had fish. bought a fillet of basa fish from the market. i have no idea what basa fish is but its consistency is that of dory fish. so i marinaded it yesterday afternoon with some of chris' magically awesome pesto sauce, and then lightly pan fried it last night.

in the wise words of Mr. Silver:

"You can't cook, until you can cook fish."


Oh yes. I can cook.


wait. i epic failed at ribs.

mmmmmmmmmmhmmmmmmm...


so. bye.

Another one about food

I just cook an amazing breakfast. It was so amazing I had to tell you about it.


breakfast chris? at 4 in the afternoon?



yeh... i woke up when my alarm rang and jumped out of the shower.


and had coffee. so no time for breakfast. after the calculus tutorial (which i enjoyed actually. great revision. lol) i came home again, and instead of cooking, i just ate up some tasty riffs so righteous, my guitar got over her anguished self. oh yeh. i was really really upset a few days ago cause of some stuff ANDMYGUITARFELLANDGOTDINGED:(:(:(:(:(:(:( and there was that shitty first day. and the fuckton of work.

BUT I'm fine now. yep. got to know my neighbours and stuff, cool bunch.

now then. where was i?

right, i played guitar, and then it was time for japanese. so i went for my jap class, then went home. ok, why didn't you cook then chris?

well. i started crying.

why?


onions.


terrible stuff. and then i diced some tomatoes, and cut the other half of said onion into rings. and before proceeding, i decided i wanted to go for a swim.


how was the swim chris? never happened. i arrived at the gym after a long 15 walk. only to find out i left my trunks at home. GREAT. another 15 minutes and i get back home, half an hour wasted in stupid swanston street. i oughta start taking the trams. so, at this point, i'm like ok, i'll have some dunch (that's linner for you antarcticans). so i get out some potatoes and start slicing them finely after peeling them, and soak them in a cup of red shiraz. shitty stuff honestly. 6 dollars. but its great to cook with.

and i heated up the oil, threw in the onion rings that i stored in the fridge from just now. then drained the wine into the bowl of chopped and threw the potatoes in the pan and stir-fried with salt and pepper, and then on to the plate.

yep, that's right. Lyonnesse potatoes. good stuff. so the onions, drained, thrown into the pan. nicely caramelized thanks to the shitty shiraz, and i throw in 2 eggs beaten with soya sauce and pepper. and then in goes the diced tomatoes. then cheese (just those square singles from kraft). fold flip flip and on to the plate beside the potatoes.

while the pan was still hot, threw in a couple of slices of bread cause i didn't have a toaster. so the bread was nicely toasted with a really awesome aroma.

then the wine from before, instead of being thrown, i reduced it on the pan (that's when you evaporate it, gives you like a dark red syrupy sauce.) and then drizzled it over the potatoes.

to sum it up. most delicious breakfast i had in melbourne. breakfast. because they're all breakfast dishes.


SO. anyway. i chopped up another onion, and diced another tomato, plucked some leaves from my pot of basil, chopped up some garlic and threw it into my food processor, and then added some tomato based sauce from the supermarket, and poured in olive oil, a bit of salt. and PROCESSED it. HEHEHE so much fun. and hey presto, you have chris' magical AWESOME PESTO SAUCE. 1% stuff and 99% awesome. wanna know what it tastes like?



awesomesauce.

ok. well, i promise not to blog about food too often. its just, there's not alot else to do here. i mean everything closes at like 6. wtf? anyway. whatever.

bye guys. i'm off to study.








you never thought you'd hear that, did you?

i'm nissin my noodles

i made myself a steak today, oh so proud of myself i am. the steak itself was nice. the gravy... a little unusual. i'll give you the recipe.

1 cup Mirin Sake
(dunno how big a cup is i just poured from the bottle)

6... blobs of HP sauce
(that's basically your Lea and Perrins or Worceister)

1 handful of fresh basil
(I'm growing a pot of basil on my balcony)

1 tablespoon of honey

2... shakes(?) of black pepper

1/4 cup of soya sauce

and.. get this...

2 cups of green tea.




yeh? yeh? you're itching to try my steak now aren't you? ADMIT IT.

anyway, i got this new program for free cause my old one wasn't compatible, so now on top of garageband i have another effects processor to add to my arsenal of brutal ear-flaying recording tools. its got WAH. i love WAH. i'm addicted to WAH. i'll show you soons mkay? soons...

bye

Oh well.

i really didn't feel like blogging. first it was cause i felt like i needed to get into the swing of things, to acclimatize and stuff. when i settled in, i was just too busy. now, its 2AM, i'm jobless, bored shitless, but really lazy.

but because i'm such a hardworking person i will write something for people to read. because i know, despite the lack of solid evidence on my cbox, many of you still check my blog hoping for an update. and i do apologize for not updating, and disappointing you with every time you click my link.

hah. my arrogance is immense, just like the gaping void in my stomach that i attribute to the lack of MAGGI.

once i get a picture editing tool, i will change my layout, and probably the name of the blog too. it will be known henceforth as where'smymaggi.

anyway, bullshit aside, i'm in melbourne having a not so awesome time. not so awesome because i somehow imagined melbourne to be an awesome city with awesome people and awesomeness everywhere. all i see is people who can't drive and people who look good. and when i say look good, i mean better than myself, so perhaps not that good relative to the hot blonde surfer guy that just passed through your mind.

summer?

psh. at least i never really sweat. i mean. when its hot, its dry. when its cold, its dry. when its really cold, its wet. un-awesome weather.

other than that, i'm enjoying cooking. made really good fettucine today. without sauce reliance. and lamb rack. hehe. i swear! invited teo over for dinner. hope he's still breathing. oh well, its a good thing overseas health coverage was compulsory. wonder if it covers cancer...

uhm, i impaled my thumb with a steak knife while washing it. was really cool, i was wiping it really fast back and forth and then *splurt*, the sink and the wall tiles are dotted with crimson. or scarlet.


by the way. i need an opinion.


this is the vox pathfinder. 10W.



Orange Crush. Also 10W. about the same price.


they both have that classic look and tone. orange will give me nicer distortions (in fact, orange only gives me distortion) and looks badass. its orange! vox on the other hand just oozes vintageness. and vintageness is awesomeness.

which one? sigh. but they're both still expensive. just cheaper than everything else. except the micro-amps. you know those cute ones that fit in your pocket? yeh. that's gay. well, no, but just, not very proper. as in its not loud enough for my neighbours to hear.



this i would get in a heartbeat. if it weren't so damn expensive. of course, if you send me about 1500RM i would greatly benefit and probably be able to afford it. you will have my long term gratitude and i would repay you by playing you a nice tune on my guitar, most probably the theme song to space ghost.



i'm still looking forward to meeting up with people who are in melbourne. *hint*. if any of them read my blog. otherwise my blatant hinting will get me neverwhere.


OKAY. i'm gonna go sleep. have a great day/night (pick one corresponding to your time zone or the time you read this).

CNY 08

was fuhriiking awesome!

i've got a house in perak. its real sweet. pics of my crib some other day. i hate posting photos on blogspot. it bitches out on me. so i'll post the really really important pics first. there aren't many.







i'd always thought my family was huge, i mean my dad has 4 siblings, and then there's his cousins and everything, like holy shit man, the ang pao money i get from perak each year. well guess what? it got bigger! so many more little ones! my little cousin has a little baby brother now! aww. they're both so adorable.




and in my perak crib is my kick ass ride: a Polaris Predator 90cc atv.





heh... so much fun riding the damn thing. so fun i nearly got myself killed.

yeh... that thing fell on top of me. haha.


anyway i bought ANOTHER guitar. from a supermarket. ahahahhaa. RM69.00, i couldn't resist! it's purple!





a lot more stuff happened, but i can't remember much... must've knocked my head pretty hard when the atv overturned. =/


but yeh, basically that's where i disappeared to those 13 days. =)