27.8.09

the pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me, so why can't you forgive me?

currently in the ballieu working on my pharmacology prac writeup, its pretty nice around this time. not too hectic, not too crowded. pretty quiet. had a swim just now, i think i'm in trouble. my almost nonexistent fitness is slipping through my fingers again.

i have to say, i've been having a fantastic week. kicking off with anberlin, which was a success in the end, and house church in a car/airport was pretty interesting. wednesdays are always good. coffee early in the morning today, played guitar with zach, always something to look forward to, and then caught up with a really dear friend over coffee. was a really inspiring conversation. and then ann and i took brian on a musical tour of carlton/fitzroy/brunswick in search of a violin, and finally chilled at little creatures.

full of faith, hope, and love, i wish i could say my week has been. but its a real-time struggle to start off each new day in a posture that allows Christ's incarnational discipleship to seep into my veins. and yet, thank God for the events that constantly fill up my time, because they are opportunities for me to re-present the Creator, something i could not do cooped up at home.

and let me tell you something about home. don't take it for granted. for now, let me just say... i'm thankful for a pillow to sleep on at night, a soft bed to lie on, a thick blanket to keep me warm. things you might not find in the old engineering building at unimelb.

anyway. i shall get on with my work. but here's to exciting times up ahead.

in eager anticipation of the Spirit's work,
love,
chris.

24.8.09

BUMMER MAN

no anberlin? :(



ohvvell. maybe i'll get a new guitar.
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howwwwwww.


apparently that is what guilt looks like.


guiltar. heh. heh.

i know i can't afford it... yet. unemployment is actually becoming a concern now. what the heck gave me the impression that gaining employment as a lifeguard was cruisy?


WHAT SHOULD I DOOOOOOO?

anberlin... physics? anberlin seems fun and i dont wanna go for physics.. but i've been put into emotional turmoil over the past 15minutes. HOWHWOWHOWHOWHOWHOW?!?!?! CHRIS LAW WHAT LA?!?!?!




-Ann Boo, 24/08/2009


blahblah

ok. gonna try. *pleasepleasedon'tdisappoint*


meh, in the percy baxter right now. just finished my parmacology assignment. OH GOTTA HAND IT IN.


ok. gonna go mano mi tarea en a la medicina building.


bye!

20.8.09

FRUSTRATION

*mightymightyroarofannoyance*

why can't we speak the same language? :(

why do you have to be so difficult?

why can't you just see things my way?

*ahem* "why don't you understand? why can't you read my mind?"

why can't we just get along, like we used to?

WHY WINDOWS WHY? YOU AND YOUR USELESS .EXE NONSENSE, WHY?!

13.8.09

Any Given Thursday

God answers all prayers.

Sometimes the answer is no.

Thank God.

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New song in the works, smells like progress, after what seemed like a dry spell of false riffs and un-flow-etic lyrics.

John Mayer is a clever chap. Great musicality.

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It's been a good week. I know I've dropped off the blogosphere radar for about a month, yes, mum was here. Uni's been really hardcore, and I'm just really thankful for the space I took for granted. It takes living with 2 other people in this tiny apartment for a month for me to really appreciate the stillness and the peace upon this humble abode. No more voices, no more TV (I really hate that box), just no more noise. I feel I'm finally home again.

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I really wanted to write... but then I suddenly stopped feeling chatty. :/

27.7.09

i kiss you on the brain

after i bandage it up good, cause i'm a certified senior level 2 first aider!

its been a crazy weekend, locked up in a classroom from 8AM to 6PM. i guess the whole ordeal's given me quite a huge chunk of stuff to think about, and its pretty effectively cleared my head of fluff and junk too.

i signed up for the course because it was a pre-requisite for the pool lifeguard course at the msac, and quite frankly, i only wanted to do the pool lifeguard course cause i thought it was frickin awesome being a lifeguard. but the first aid course was so full on and intense and i wasn't prepared at all. just about an hour into the course, i got really freaked out, because the responsibility of being a first aider began to dawn on me. well, now i know what i'm supposed to do when i see unconscious casualties, well... i'm supposed to do it right? but, what happens if the person has a spinal injury? this was the bit that really really had me terrified. a slight movement and the casualty becomes paraplegic. and you can tell from the instructor's tone, that this always brings up the question of legalities? what happens if i stuff up?

he was very reassuring, in that the approach that should be adopted as advised by all first aid councils is "any aid is better than no aid". the only way a first aider can be sued for negligence is firstly if the casualty is owed a duty of care, and no care is given, and secondly, the first aider misrepresents himself as having a higher qualification than he actually does, and thirdly, he does not act within what his qualification indicates he is capable of doing, otherwise known as standard of care.

a duty of care is owed by the first aider to anyone with whom he has some sort of relationship, eg: relative, student, friend, colleague etc. technically, i have the right, to walk right past a complete stranger having a heart attack in the gutter. however, the moment i come to his aid, a relationship is established, and i now owe him duty of care, which means i'm not allowed to abandon him, and he remains in my care until the situation is considered stable, ie. the ambulance arrives.

and of course, whatever happens to the casualty, especially anything undesirable, even if it weren't the result of my actions, i am afraid that i'll find myself in a position where i'll have to justify myself. of course, when filling in a first aid log, the first rule is that you never justify your actions. and yet i can't help but think what if i do find someone who already has a spinal injury, and its my job to keep him alive? how do i explain to a distressed spouse that i managed to keep the bloke alive until the ambulance takes him away, fixes him up, for her to have to care for a quadriplegic for the rest of his life?

no clarity yet. but if ephesians 2 and romans 3 is anything to go by, i shouldn't be worried about this should i?

i claim to be a life-loving human being, and yet could fear of the judgement and hostility of other human beings be enough to paralyse and prevent me from stepping to support the precious life left in another?

in any case, i scored pretty high on the first aid test, and i now have a paranoid urge to keep a triangular bandage and resuscitation mask on me at all times. maybe a ventolin as well. and if the nagging voices in my head don't stop i might just get a defibrillator as well (that would be that thing paramedics stick on the guys chest and go "clear!" and *poof*). all the same i'm really glad i did the course. because despite the complexities and intricacies of what keeps a person ticking, despite al my fears and insecurities, life is still precious to me.




long rant. anyway, classes have started, timetable looks much better than i'd anticipated. looks like its gonna be a fun semester. hope everyone's had a good rest, now its time to dive back into the pile of books and lecture notes.

chris out, and wishing you well. blessings!

19.7.09

chicken rice

whyyyyyyyyy poh!!!! woman why did you leave the sorbet to the last minute? and follow instructions dammit, if it says don't put in fridge, don't put it in the fridgeeeee! :( i'm sad for you.


anyway, coincidentally mum cooked chicken rice for dinner. haha. anyway, good for julie. and poh, i'd still eat at your dumpling stall. she's done really well though, she done malaysians proud.


ook. glee looks like a pretty cool show.

18.7.09

oh

i have a blog?



uh, sydney was awesome. mum's here. for... a while. class starts soon.



i know stress. stress knows i. we're cool.



*deep breath*



maybe i should blow off a little steam first then. so, results came out, rather unexpected, not great but not bad either. headspace is a little crowded of late, but not filled with meaningful worthwhile thoughts. they're there, scattered about. but its mostly just whinging. i whine to myself a bit too much lately, its so not me. i've grown soft.


time to man up chrissykins.

oh eww. i just called myselfneeeeevermind.

i have awesome friends. thanks for being awesome! i have no pictures of us in sydney because... i've still got 7 shots left, and then i can send in the whole lot for printing. sigh. the inflexibility of film.

also, i might not be able to write a proper post for some time. please be patient and put up with fueledbymaggi until i've unloaded all the rubbish cluttering the cookie jar i call my brain.


as you might have gathered, i've nary a point to make, but should thy pretty eyes thirst for more words of wisdom (not that you've found any here I'm sure), please be redirected by this link to Meld Magazine. it's cool.

OKAIIII. i really can't take it anymore, the longer i sit here, the more, as brian would say, junk i'll spew out. punk.

so byee. (bye, miss american pie, drove my chevy to the levy but the levy was dry...)